I'm going to start visually separating my subject changes in this blog. It was painful to read those last few posts the way they were. XD
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This GIF perfectly encompasses how I've been feeling lately. There are so many feelings that I can do nothing about, and it's eating away at me. There's some delicate shit in the balance over here, and I don't want to fuck any of it up by saying things that can't be unsaid. I feel like I'm hiding something that I shouldn't need to hide, but I'm doing it anyway just to keep my current relationships (which are extremely important to me) in-tact.
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Analytical Figure Drawing starts Monday. I have access to the first video tomorrow, though, and I think I'll have access to the forums, or an assignment, or something. Anything to keep my hands and mind busy will do! After this class, I'll be one step closer to realizing my imagination in illustrative form in the way that I see fit -- I'm excited a way that only an art nerd could be!
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When I was dropping off packages the other day, the fella who took my mail crate smiled at me and told me to have a nice day before I left. Writing that sentence makes me realize how depraved I am of human contact from shutting myself in my studio for weeks on end, but that is not why I write about it today: I write about it because simple gestures like that always seem to mean the most, especially when you don't see them coming. That shit brightened up my day in a way that I never would have been able to predict, and I think it'll help me to remember to leave the house every once in a while. :P I still hate people on the whole, though. People are assholes.
Except you. You're cool.
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